25 weeks

I narrowly averted getting admitted to L&D last night. My hips were absolutely killing me - walking hurt, sitting hurt and I was getting contractions. I took 10 mg. of nifedipine but after an hour nothing seemed to help my hip pain so I went to the ER.

My cervix is 'soft' and finger tip dilated... and I'm officially freaking out. I had a negative on my fFN test. I have an appointment with my doctor at 11:15 today. Tuesday I had an ultrasound and was 3.3 cm which was a loss of 1/2 cm. in one week. Things are happening fast now and the doctor covering for mine said he was very worried about me tearing through my cerclage. The resident I saw at first talked about steroid shots....

I just started crying - how did I go from 3 cm and everything great to them talking about steroid and admitting me?!

Bedrest is a given, I started that as soon as I got home and I'm fortunate that my work will allow me to work from home.

I'm getting scared now - I'm only 25 weeks. Even the resident didn't express confidence I'd last another 10. Although no contractions showed up on the strip it wasn't all quiet so they think I'm 'irritable'... and I didn't feel any of it.

ugh - Please keep me in your good thoughts today. I hope to update this afternoon!